Constrict

All i have to say is this:

you brought it on yourself.

believe me, i tried. i really did. but all you ever did was to pull me closer and closer and suffocate me with all the pretence of happiness. i cant stand it. once, you said you didnt understand why people cant just come clean and say why they're upset or what not but then again, have you ever really thought about it?

you're just the same.

i'm not denying that i am not the same. in fact, i think i am very much like "these people" you scorn. but the difference is, i know i am. i admit it. to be honest, i really hate confessing. i hate confrontation. i think i am so use to bottling everything up that it just becomes part of me. why do you suppose i can bear with you. and all your problems.

i thought that we could really have a lasting friendship. i thought that we could have done so much more things. not turn out like that.

invisible.

part of me still hopes that we could still be good friends like we used to be. i really did value you as my good friend. And at some point, best friend even.

but your insecurities, your jealousy, your distrust constricts me. and i hate being tight down. why cant you just accept who my friends are? why cant you just accept that i dont belong to anyone? why cant you just listen? why cant you just accept who i am?

i'm really tired of your pathetic excuses. stop wallowing in self-pity and start doing something you would be proud of. Everyone have their dirty laundries, you're not the only one.

babe, time to grow up and realise that the world does not revolve around you.

xoxo.